Building a Brain That Can Do Everything (But Not All at Once)

Ever since I can remember, I’ve been curious about everything.

One day I want to master the guitar. The next, I’m obsessively adding completely unnecessary features to my personal site—just because I can. Then I’ll find myself watching a video about the mysteries of black holes, watching explainer videos on how relativity actually works, or dreaming about building my own product that solves a problem no one’s even thought of yet. I’m a software engineer by profession and by passion, but that’s just one slice of the pie. My interests branch into singing (when I’m broke or too happy), messing around with my guitar just for the vibes, sketching people I secretly like, dabbling into ethical hacking or learning random networking commands after watching a couple of spy movies, solo bike rides through some forest trails, diving into some random physics concepts out of curiousity, penning down my thoughts, reading books or random articles, and even collecting the most unnecessary and random facts that most people would ignore. I love asking questions. I love understanding how things work. I want to know the 'why' behind everything.

In short, I want to be a polymath. The greatest polymath, if I could.

But there’s a catch.

Sometimes I’m hyper-focused—lost in code, oblivious to the world, solving bugs that felt impossible just an hour ago. Other times, I’m scattered—half-reading five books, switching between twenty tabs, dabbling in things that don’t seem to connect, and feeling like I’ve accomplished nothing substantial. I want to do everything, but I often end up half-doing a dozen things instead. This constant switching between obsessive focus and chaotic curiosity leaves me exhausted. Sometimes inspired. But often…unfulfilled.